Hello friends!

Here i am sitting at work and writing a blog for you. What else would i do in this dumb little cubicle? oh, work? maybe.. lol :P

I am so close to putting my two weeks in, but im also disappointed in myself for not sticking out a full year at this job. I work downtown chicago in the sears tower for a law firm. Ive been here for 6 months on the dot, and am planning to quit before we leave for ESWC.

After this tournament im going to enlist in the army. What? Yes. I am.

I have my degree and my jobs pretty secure, but i want to keep learning. Schools expensive, financial aid will no longer support my studies because i completed getting my B.A already and so i've cornered myself into looking into the military. Yes, i know i can get loans.. but i dont want to be in debt for the rest of my life. I want to be debt free and have the army pay off my school loans, I want to travel, I want to shoot guns IRL(wonder if my aim will be like CS. JK) and if i dont go now ill never get to experience this. If i dont force myself now, i will never end up going back to school either.

I know i might hate it. I know i might cry everyday for 2 months wanting to go home and just play CS being lazy, but i need to keep my head on straight. I need to finish my education while im young, support my parents and secure my own future. Funny thing is, the army will do all that for me no matter how many different methods i can think of to avoid going. after a while, i may end up even loving it :) just have to get over being homesick the first couple months.

So, if ESWC is my last tournament ever.. I really hope we get first. That will be the best memory to depart with. Being the best female team in the world is something i know we are, can be and will be as long as we put our hearts in it, our minds on it and our desires through it.

Sometimes I hate my girls (rare), but most of the time I love them to death (they dont know that). I would not want to play with any other lineup even if you handed them to me on a silver platter. We are full of emotions, full of hunger and even after many years of being together with all the UPs and DOWNs, i know the rest of the girls love each other and feel like i do (ihope?). Its funny... we have an interesting mix of personalities that clash sometimes (but who doesnt time to time?), and when it comes for game time.. we all suck it up and headshot! our chemistry is real and we must work hard for ESWC to stay number 1. Whatever happens... This is my team. These are skilled ladies. This is SK-Gaming Ladies at its best.

Thanks yall, cheer for us in france.

Love,
Jso.