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I've been reading some blogs lately in this site and i couldn't help to ask myself what's the purpose of all this, quite new, blog-phenomenon. What makes someone write in public his personal thoughts, and why do the others read it? I think, the human personality is a really complicated thing and that's exactly the reason why i couldn't give a satisfying answer to this question. However i can tell u why I am writing this blog.
I was reading a thread the other day and the thread-maker asked us to remember the best replays we've ever seen in wc3. It's not an unusual thread or sth, nor was it the first time someone asked sth like this. It was the first time though,i pondered about time and its swift passing. I still remember the day i acquired my wc3 roc copy. A friend who bought wc3 just cause he played diablo and thought that wc3 would be sth like it but got disapointed gave it to me. I installed it and played it and i got hooked. I finished the campaign in three days and naturally i started playing on b-net. I got good at it (not pro or sth), and i'm having fun through ladder games, custom games and replays till that day.
"Till that day".... And what day is this? I checked the box of my RoC and i saw it was made in 2002. Today we have 2006. It's been four years already. Four years that seem to me more like four days. I remember me four years younger and i see myself in the present day. I won't get into any details but my life has changed alot all these years. Four years before i was just a kid which had just finished the school. Today i'm a "grown up" man with many responsibilities in my life. I've finished my studies in university i work somewhere and many advice me to find a good girl and get married (sth which i hate and i'm not gay), and when they see me sitting in front of my computer with wc3 open, everyone, and i mean everyone - parents friends etc- get a disaproving face and start the preaching about how imature is what i do, and how i'm supposed to grow up and let this things behind. And i think to myself : If growing up means to stop doing things that make me have fun then do i really have to?
I bet most of u havent heard of it but there is a thing called " The Peter Pan Syndrom". This is sth created by the so called "psychologists" to describe the phenomenon when someone refuses to grow up and keeps some childish characteristics in his behaviour even if he is no more a child. At times like this i think that i have some symptoms of this "illness". It's in times like this, when i think i dont wanna grow and become a boring old man with only business and politics in his mind. And it's also in times like this when i see how time makes fools of us. How i'm gonna wake one day and see myself in the mirror, with white hair and wrinkles on my skin, waiting for the inevitable.
I had to write all these just to take them out of myself or else i would explode. So the purpose of this blog is quite selfish : Liberate me from my dark thoughts by sharing them with other people, unkown to me, cause i would never tell all these things to someone i know. He would look at me like if i were mad, just like you're prolly thinking i am by now and just like it may be.
And what's the conclusion, the moral you may ask. My answer is that there is no conclusion neither is supposed to be in a simple imprint of some random thoughts.
p.s. If u ever bother reading this i'd like to apologise for my bad english. I would say much more if i could write in my mother language. So consider yourself lucky ^^
By Gandalf 'GoDLiKe_G4nd4lf' The Grey
Aug 18, 2005 01:21
I've been reading some blogs lately in this site and i couldn't help to ask myself what's the purpose of all this, quite new, blog-phenomenon. What makes someone write in public his personal thoughts, and why do the others read it? I think, the human personality is a really complicated thing and that's exactly the reason why i couldn't give a satisfying answer to this question. However i can tell u why I am writing this blog.
I was reading a thread the other day and the thread-maker asked us to remember the best replays we've ever seen in wc3. It's not an unusual thread or sth, nor was it the first time someone asked sth like this. It was the first time though,i pondered about time and its swift passing. I still remember the day i acquired my wc3 roc copy. A friend who bought wc3 just cause he played diablo and thought that wc3 would be sth like it but got disapointed gave it to me. I installed it and played it and i got hooked. I finished the campaign in three days and naturally i started playing on b-net. I got good at it (not pro or sth), and i'm having fun through ladder games, custom games and replays till that day.
"Till that day".... And what day is this? I checked the box of my RoC and i saw it was made in 2002. Today we have 2006. It's been four years already. Four years that seem to me more like four days. I remember me four years younger and i see myself in the present day. I won't get into any details but my life has changed alot all these years. Four years before i was just a kid which had just finished the school. Today i'm a "grown up" man with many responsibilities in my life. I've finished my studies in university i work somewhere and many advice me to find a good girl and get married (sth which i hate and i'm not gay), and when they see me sitting in front of my computer with wc3 open, everyone, and i mean everyone - parents friends etc- get a disaproving face and start the preaching about how imature is what i do, and how i'm supposed to grow up and let this things behind. And i think to myself : If growing up means to stop doing things that make me have fun then do i really have to?
I bet most of u havent heard of it but there is a thing called " The Peter Pan Syndrom". This is sth created by the so called "psychologists" to describe the phenomenon when someone refuses to grow up and keeps some childish characteristics in his behaviour even if he is no more a child. At times like this i think that i have some symptoms of this "illness". It's in times like this, when i think i dont wanna grow and become a boring old man with only business and politics in his mind. And it's also in times like this when i see how time makes fools of us. How i'm gonna wake one day and see myself in the mirror, with white hair and wrinkles on my skin, waiting for the inevitable.
I had to write all these just to take them out of myself or else i would explode. So the purpose of this blog is quite selfish : Liberate me from my dark thoughts by sharing them with other people, unkown to me, cause i would never tell all these things to someone i know. He would look at me like if i were mad, just like you're prolly thinking i am by now and just like it may be.
And what's the conclusion, the moral you may ask. My answer is that there is no conclusion neither is supposed to be in a simple imprint of some random thoughts.
p.s. If u ever bother reading this i'd like to apologise for my bad english. I would say much more if i could write in my mother language. So consider yourself lucky ^^
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